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Sun, 05 May 2013 01:46:08 -0400

ladodgers:

Safe!

considering the heartbreaking loss tonight, this was pretty cool. I liked seeing Dee back. He’s so fun to watch when he’s on base.

and wow Don let Paco pitch an ENTIRE INNING!

but for now, i must go and….cry…

also i really don’t like belisario like really don’t like him

so i plan on ringing in the new year at home on my comfy couch. it is decided and i am excited :)...

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 05:25:00 -0500

so i plan on ringing in the new year at home on my comfy couch. it is decided and i am excited :) maybe i’ll visit my familia on the parade route but i d k.

so golfing, then probably rose bowl if it’s even allowed…then more more more exercise and then a few beers and TV/a movie then sleep. and maaaaybe meet up with a friend.

tonight was pretty frustrating because i got yelled at for no reason whatsoever. why is he allowed to invite random people to the wedding and i can’t invite two ppl? what ever. it is your wedding so i’m just gonna hush and try to enjoy myself. yeah we’ve definitely drifted apart. ….sad…it makes me sad. but oh well, life happens.

that’d be pretty awk if i get accepted to teachNOLA cuz then we’d be in the same city…meh I probably won’t get accepted cuz I mean come on it’s ME we are talking about. ugh I hate it when i get in these moods its so depressing. i hate me.

it makes me afraid because i feel like i’m never gonna get better. and i guess it’s kind of like what pastor spoke about today. blahhh I’m such a failure. i can’t even forget the past correctly. ughhhhhh

yeah i really need to meet him.

Wed, 03 Oct 2012 03:27:55 -0400

yeah i really need to meet him.

It is now time to exercise. Just got back from bible study and it went awesome! So gud. I really...

Fri, 27 Jul 2012 00:49:06 -0400

It is now time to exercise. Just got back from bible study and it went awesome! So gud. I really don’t feel like exercising but gotta keep going! 20lbs and more to be sweat off yayyyuh. I am honestly proud of myself thus far. Jeans are saggy already and shirts fit me bigger and looser. change coming and i like what i see. Mind Body & Soul.

AOH AND I got a call from Think Together today and they want to set up a pre-employment test & interview :D So stoked! It’s such a blessing and I really hope I am able to work for them. I would LOVE TO begin working with kids and getting paid for it. Still gonna stay volunteering at schools and what not though. I love it. God is grand.

Wed, 25 Jul 2012 03:24:19 -0400

SO I just weighed myself and I have lost 20 lbs! It honestly doesn’t feel that way but I do feel a difference in the way my clothing fits + everyone and they mamas telling me I am looking good/ losing weight. haha “What’s your secret?” Work out, eat healthy. DUH.

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Tue, 24 Jul 2012 03:03:21 -0400

omg

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 03:27:05 -0400

i haven’t exercised since Friday and I ate soooooo MUCH today but I guess it’s valid because I played basketball. But I was wearing sandals so I wasn’t even running like crazy but I was running.s;dhdfjfgdlhjasb horrible.

Tomorrow I need to wake up, exercise, go to the grocery store, clean, cook, walk my dogs and exercise again. And watch Breaking Bad and the Dodgers show. :] This week home alone +mybro shall be good.

ignite-bones: can I have your body and face?!

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 03:57:23 -0400

ignite-bones:

can I have your body and face?!

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Fri, 20 Jul 2012 03:42:00 -0400

Haven’t blogged or bitched or what ever it is I do here in a while. This weekend was...

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 02:31:37 -0400

Haven’t blogged or bitched or what ever it is I do here in a while. This weekend was spectacular. The All-Star game was so fun to watch and I have been exercixing err day so I am quite impressed and happy with myself.

Tomorrow Gerson, Ricky, Becks and I will go visit Jesse in Rancho. Super excited to spend the day with him in his apartment/pool/wherever. Going to a youth group he recently started going to so that should be fun.

I’ve been doing really good with not over-eating and eating a bunch of bad fatty foods, and if I do I go hard when I work out.

Excited to see my babe Frank Ocean on Tuesday at the Wiltern. Life’s pretty swell for now. I need/want a new job but am not sure if I should get one just yet considering I am going to be taking 19+ units this semester. Definitely going to get a job after though. No exceptions. I hope I get blessed with a good one… sdaglhdjsfbdhjsa God please, if you will it.

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Wed, 11 Jul 2012 02:27:30 -0400

fuckity fuck my life.

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 22:29:00 -0400

honest to God, i don’t even feel like graduating anymore. Not in May anyway. Maybe I need to just focus on getting a mother fucking job since money is such a grand issue in this damn household. my mom takes everything to the next level. My dad is fucking negative natalie and I am just over it. Fuck everything. The worst part is I have no one to blame but myself. It’s me who got on probation back in my freshman years, me who recently turned things around and got serious about college, me who got my financial aid taken away. I’m so over it. This is all my fault. Worst part is I feel like I have NO ONE to confide in. Jasmin will surely tell her parents and i really hate that. Christina is miles and miles away. Val is super busy with her own life. Adrian is M.I.A from my life. Rebecca is the closest thing I got but she already has a lot on her plate with her gramps being in the hospital and idk I’m in a rut.

GOD Please, help, if you wanna. If not, it’s cool. I understand why things wouldn’t work out the way I want them to. You’re in control. Romans 8.28

Ughhh I have a feeling this is gonna escalate more before it comes crashing down. My parents are gonna get into another fight. Just exactly what had already driven them apart in 08 is gonna keep happening forever. You’d think that now that they’re divorced they wouldn’t fight so damn much. FUCKCKCNC;JDKBDHJBFDSBAJHSJDKSASHWOSDH

And then this whole losing weight thing feels like its not working even though everyone is telling me it is i dont believe it. im always gonna be that fat girl who secretly hates herself even though she pretends all the time that everything is peachy. lol. so unworthy ;ierubfdsabhjsbgrvfcdewsa God please spare me. Please. I was so excited for this semester and it feels like everything is just blowing up right now. because it is, slowly but surely. and i want to just pray and forget about it, put it in Gods hands. and in a sense, i am doing just that but my God, I can’t fully.

what does it even mean when someone tells you ”I meant to text you today & I forgot :{ i...

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 04:07:00 -0400

what does it even mean when someone tells you ”I meant to text you today & I forgot :{ i was cutting a tree” what.

p.s i need to exercise the hell out of my body later today~ :] and jeeezz snakebite.:3

am i quietly developing feelings for you? :| scares me a bit, but at least you’re not like the...

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 05:02:32 -0400

am i quietly developing feelings for you? :| scares me a bit, but at least you’re not like the other two assholes that i spent my time on in the past. kind of excited about where things will go.

what it isssss

debating on spider-man with the boys or working out for an hour and a half….i think i’m gonna workout.

so once again the Dodgers lose. It’s sort of becoming their thing. Like they are remembering...

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 01:17:17 -0400

so once again the Dodgers lose. It’s sort of becoming their thing. Like they are remembering last year and missing it. STOP IT NAO.

Anyway, tomorrow should be nice. Golf with dad, alabanza practice, and church. I have been keeping up with exercising and eating right so I am proud! A few pairs of underwear that used to fit me super tight and annoyingly now fit perfectly THUMBS UP! :D

Saturday shall be spectacular at the beach, I just hope my period doesn’t come yet. Also, I need money. Probably gonna have to ask my dad for it. And gonna have to figure out how to pay for tuition this semester. 2 more semesters and I am a college grad. Crazy. That is all for now.

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Thu, 28 Jun 2012 18:14:33 -0400

omg im so embarrassing #killmenow D: from now i on i stop

Thu, 28 Jun 2012 03:09:08 -0400

omg im so embarrassing #killmenow D: from now i on i stop

why is the male species so freakin’ good looking? ahlsabfjdghvfriulw i can never compete, too...

Thu, 28 Jun 2012 03:03:19 -0400

why is the male species so freakin’ good looking? ahlsabfjdghvfriulw i can never compete, too fea to score a good lookin male..

one-goal: atribecalledlyss: be mine marry me please

Thu, 28 Jun 2012 02:29:05 -0400

one-goal:

atribecalledlyss:

be mine

marry me please

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Tue, 26 Jun 2012 15:00:23 -0400